She is not dead, but I can not imagine life with out her after only spending less than 2 decades with her. She collapsed on Halloween night and had to be rushed to the hospital and Monday they found it during exploratory surgery. When they told me and she was in the CCU I turned to Jell-o in the parking lot and cried like a baby for two days on and off. My Dad is a doctor and was able to tell me the real state of her condition and that she can live a long time, be disease free and manage the disease. I pray she does not die from it soon and that we can get her well. I am trying to keep up a good attitude and I know I must for her, but it is very hard right now. I am getting better at it everyday. She took the news much better than I did since she is a scientist and now can focus on fighting it. It is going to be a long road and I pray she gets through it.