^^^^
omg!!!
i tought my body was a trainwreck....
i'm on supeudol since this past november while waiting for a lower back surgery.
pain can be bright and very sharp, to the point of not being able to walk normally.
when i'm struck by the nerves touching some bones,it litterally cut my legs , and i may fall down on the floor ; i have to hook on the walls,appliances...on anything to crawl back in bed,my lower back is so painfull ,it cant support the upper body.
i take as many as i see fit(6 to 8 _ 10mill pills ) ,so i can go through out my retirement days.
i fear the day doc will cut my oxy intake. will i get a stroke?
now,when my time is past (meds) i feel dizzy and i'm getting chills ,i've never felt this way ,i think symptoms are instilled by my body claiming his dose.
i've been 8 years in this state of high pain, while refusing to take any painkillers, before
the doc convinced me i would have a much better life while waiting for the
surgery ; but if i had to choose between the bright and cutting pain i've been through all these years i refused the meds, i'd choose the meds again,living pain free is priceless,living with 24 on 24 pain is more than the human body can take on the long term.
yet,i'm in high fear.
will i be able to jump out from the meds without a hiccup?
i know it'll be a really tough time.