She fell ill on my birthday the 10th and passed yesterday in her yard at noon. Vet thinks she had a tumor rupture and she bled out. I am full of guilt, as I brought her inside that night and she was already dying and i didnt know, I just kept working or and doing my thing. I would check on her and pet her but I had no idea, I feel so bad. I am in no way to pay for surgery, and would not submit her to surgery either she was 13. The vet said there was nothing that could be done anyway.
I think of all the days I didnt do anything, or did not give her attention and I want that time back. I miss her. I have her son who is 12 and her two grandkids who are both 2.
My girlfriend, who I live with is out of town, it was tough. I just wanted to let it out I have not talked to many friends since.