gray wolf
09-12-2013, 08:13 PM
I wish I only had to give this update to one or two people,
Or say thank you to just a few, why ? cause If I did it would mean that the events that took place in my life on Saturday were small.
Perhaps in a way they were, since they only happened to me and Julie, And in the grand scheme of things considering the size of this planet that we all put our feet on maybe they were.
Then again I know they were not, I say that because I have been reading pages and pages of kind thoughts and prayers, We have also been shown overwhelming generosity I can't look anyone in the eyes and say thank you, I can't shake any hands or hug someone,
And none of you can hug me and tell me it's going to be OK.
But please know I would if it were possible and I know I would get that hug from you. After all it's what family does--isn't it ?
I got many PM,s from folks saying that I was an important part of the forum and they were appreciative of some of my post.
That was nice to here, I don't always see it that way but it made me happy that some of you do.
Julie is home now, step one, she has regained much of what was lost when she got on the Helicopter. I know she will read this so let me just say ; there is still a lot of work to be done, I will let you read between the lines on that one.
I find my self getting angry, not at her,
but at what happened, I also know that it's a normal feeling and I have to deal with it. In reality it was no ones fault, things happen and we play the hand we are dealt. Sometimes we can draw two with 3 of a kind in the hole, and sometimes we have to draw 4 while clutching onto a lonely deuce.
We thank God we are here, we are still together and we have a chance to go on. for how long ? I don't know, know one can answer that.
The realization that some changes are in order has yet to fully sink it--I understand that, and I recognize the resistance those thoughts can face. We are working at it.
When I have to say thank you I always think it's not enough,
like there should be other words, longer words, more words that all run together. Like maybe I should use a bigger font or say it louder.
Well my friends no matter if I shouted it, whispered it or wrote it on a bridge overpass, it comes out the same way.
So that's what I will say to you all--Thank you-- thank you for the Prayers and for helping us out with some funds.
We got the bill for the Helicopter ride today--
$10,000 + another $1,000 for on board service. I don't know as of yet how much of that I will be responsible for. Not to much I hope.
You all are such a special group of people, I don't know how we all got on the same forum but we did. There has got to be a higher power at work here.
Some folks sent a gift and didn't use there screen name, that makes it a little hard to personalize a thank you. But I do thank you and Julie thanks you, every single one of you
lets be grateful for the time we have on this Earth, lets not forget who we love and lets not forget to let them know.
I understand now that life doesn't always give us a chance to do it latter or put it off until tomorrow. I almost didn't have a tomorrow.
So hug your loved ones, tell them why you love them and how important they are to you. If you can, do it now.
We love you all, for your thoughts, for your deeds, and for who you are.
***You are all certainly made of the right stuff. ***
With all my heart
Thank you
Sam
Or say thank you to just a few, why ? cause If I did it would mean that the events that took place in my life on Saturday were small.
Perhaps in a way they were, since they only happened to me and Julie, And in the grand scheme of things considering the size of this planet that we all put our feet on maybe they were.
Then again I know they were not, I say that because I have been reading pages and pages of kind thoughts and prayers, We have also been shown overwhelming generosity I can't look anyone in the eyes and say thank you, I can't shake any hands or hug someone,
And none of you can hug me and tell me it's going to be OK.
But please know I would if it were possible and I know I would get that hug from you. After all it's what family does--isn't it ?
I got many PM,s from folks saying that I was an important part of the forum and they were appreciative of some of my post.
That was nice to here, I don't always see it that way but it made me happy that some of you do.
Julie is home now, step one, she has regained much of what was lost when she got on the Helicopter. I know she will read this so let me just say ; there is still a lot of work to be done, I will let you read between the lines on that one.
I find my self getting angry, not at her,
but at what happened, I also know that it's a normal feeling and I have to deal with it. In reality it was no ones fault, things happen and we play the hand we are dealt. Sometimes we can draw two with 3 of a kind in the hole, and sometimes we have to draw 4 while clutching onto a lonely deuce.
We thank God we are here, we are still together and we have a chance to go on. for how long ? I don't know, know one can answer that.
The realization that some changes are in order has yet to fully sink it--I understand that, and I recognize the resistance those thoughts can face. We are working at it.
When I have to say thank you I always think it's not enough,
like there should be other words, longer words, more words that all run together. Like maybe I should use a bigger font or say it louder.
Well my friends no matter if I shouted it, whispered it or wrote it on a bridge overpass, it comes out the same way.
So that's what I will say to you all--Thank you-- thank you for the Prayers and for helping us out with some funds.
We got the bill for the Helicopter ride today--
$10,000 + another $1,000 for on board service. I don't know as of yet how much of that I will be responsible for. Not to much I hope.
You all are such a special group of people, I don't know how we all got on the same forum but we did. There has got to be a higher power at work here.
Some folks sent a gift and didn't use there screen name, that makes it a little hard to personalize a thank you. But I do thank you and Julie thanks you, every single one of you
lets be grateful for the time we have on this Earth, lets not forget who we love and lets not forget to let them know.
I understand now that life doesn't always give us a chance to do it latter or put it off until tomorrow. I almost didn't have a tomorrow.
So hug your loved ones, tell them why you love them and how important they are to you. If you can, do it now.
We love you all, for your thoughts, for your deeds, and for who you are.
***You are all certainly made of the right stuff. ***
With all my heart
Thank you
Sam