This is one heck of a hard post write. Not asking for anything--don't even know what to say.
I guess I just need to say something to someone.
Don't take me wrong I have been against it before and I am still here, but this is the Pitts. What hurts is I can't offer my wife any encouragement.
The mechanic called today to say my 1994 Dodge pick up can not be fixed.
That means NO as in nothing for transportation. 14 miles from town.
The worst part is no money to wiggle in any direction. With the food stamps and the $1,100 huned a month social Sec. check we are mostly broke at the 20th of the month.
If we want something we have to do without something else.
I had to sell something to get my new Mi Hec mold, and no it did not hurt the family--I am not that kind of guy. I don't even have a set of handles for it.
We talked about it and thought it would be nice to have something new.
Lord knows we do without.
There are many people that are in worse shape then us, I know that cause I hear about it all the time everyday, and nothing shakes my faith in the Lord
I know he has an answer for me and Julie. But it could get a little shaky--I am not sure how far down on his list we are.
Also I am not crying in my Beer (which I don't have).
This is just about talking to let the feelings out and perhaps feel a little better about what is going on. It's not even on the list of the worst 50 things that have happened in the last 68 years.
I sure do appreciate the idea of being able to at least sit and talk about it, kinda makes me feel better.
If you got this far I will say thanks for at least reading it, and yes I will keep my chin up and hope for some kind of a break here.
I think the thing that bothers me most is the fact that in a case like this there ain't much anyone can do. This for ME is not like a fifty dollar bill will get me by.
I have been getting by.
Well I don't want to over stay my welcome on this one,
just needed to get off my chest.