Recently I had a situation that gave me a look at how my mind works and I must say that I was not impressed. Our oldest daughter that is still home with us is quite the violinist. She has been playing since she was 3 and is now 12 and had an opportunity to compete for a soloist position in the chamber orchestra camp that was held in Kalamazoo last week. At the audition I saw the other Children coming in and knew most of them. One of them is a true and proven prodigy and I saw her and all kinds of things went through my mind. " Maybe she will break a string, maybe she will fall down, maybe her violin will spontaneously combust, ect. As I said I am not impressed with my thoughts /behavior. She is a sweet kid and I should have been rooting for her. But she was the competition. So they all played their pieces and sure enough this other little girl played the best. They all played their best , she was best of the best. There were two spots available. So the judge says we'll call you when we make our decision.
That evening the call came and the two spots were awarded to the two oldest kids that will be too old to compete next year, not the best player and not our daughter. Boy did I grumble about that, Shame on me. It did not bother our daughter at all. She was just happy to be able to play and quite content to just hear and make the music .
So I got a look at what motivates a stage parent and I must conclude that it is not healthy and I will have to do better than I did.
The performance was last night and they all did very nicely and our daughter had fun.