Hi...
I understand how you feel...I am retired and thought about applying for a job doing deliveries for about half a second but then good sense got the better of me and I got busy in the reloading room.
The very idea of returning to the work force was so traumatic I had to go buy a new revolver to ease my mind and reduce my stress level.
I don't ever want to experience such a mind numbing panic attack again...but I do enjoy the treatment. I will probably be taking additional treatments in the future for preventative measures...just in case I ever have an idle thought about returning to work again.