Well Cindy is exploding with joy beside me.
3 days ago the PA from Neurosurgery called and left a voice mail. They were concerned about her, concerned about her feeling like she had been left behind. This morning the doctor had a new plan if Cindy was interested. Go in and fix/replace the bad disk. Needless to say Cindy was excited. She just got called again, surgery is scheduled for Wed at the new hospital. The PA said she'd never seen one approved so fast. Asked if she was a religious woman.
I reminded Cindy that she STILL has people praying for her.
From Cindy's Lips "Thank you all so much for all the prayers you all have lifted. I am still a little scared about the surgery on Wed. But I know without all of you praying for me it would have been so much worse. I'd of been left, forgotten. Left to try to live a miserable life of pain and having to watch those I love do everything. I can never thank you enough. So instead I will pass on a promise. If you need help, come here, ask for prayer, and my husband will tell me. And I will pray for you like you all have prayed for me. God bless you each and everyone.
(Back to bill)
Letting go of the day to day problems of life is hard. My neighbor (Saint Peggy) even gave me a little sign that says " Good Morning! This is GOD, I will be handling all of your problems today"
Easy to say, hard to let go.
Saturday morning, cindy was cleaning and straightening in the bedroom. I was finally able to start letting go. By Monday things had improved between Cindy and I immensely. No more fights, no more anger, no more raised voices. It is one thing to abstractly trust the Lord with your eternal soul. After all just how much do you believe in that soul? Really?
But to trust him to handle your daily problems? That is a whole order of magnitude different.
And there ain't no road map other than the Bible. And you can think you have let go, and still be hanging on for dear life.
Anyway, so much for the continueing drama, stay tuned for a update mid week next week.
Lord, not my will but THINE be done.
Praise him with great praise.
Truly my cup overfloweth.
Thank you Lord. Sorry I'm so stubborn. Runs in the family I hear.