I'm with Texas.
Big guy was looking out for you IMO.
You'll know when it is right, there will be no obstacles, it will be like falling off a log.
Also remember he is much more likely to give us what we "need" not what we "want". Expectations may need to be adjusted.
24 years ago I was in my mid 40's, hungry, starving actually for affection. He smacked me upside the head a few times, opened my eyes, and 2 months later I was married. Still together, still solid, still in love, and still happy after 23+ years. Have hope.