I have learned through many many trials and hard times that confusion and doubt is not a matter of attaining an answer for the problem. I have been in situations where I had to pray and pray and pray some more. You could say that I was trained to spend large amounts of time on my knees in prayer. There was a time in my life when life was so difficult and confusing and no one was on my side, that the only comfort I could find was in prayer. I believe that God brought me near to him that way. He cured my mental illness and taught me how to deal with the difficulties of life. To the point where I was able to help others out of the confusion of mental illness. So my advise would be to study the Bible, get a good understanding of the Word so that the Spirit of God can use it to minister to your heart, and Pray and pray. Wear God out with your petitions. Remember the widow who kept bothering the unjust judge until he gave in to her. And Jesus admonishing us to go to God with that approach.
I guarantee that God will not forsake persistent prayer.
The faith, comfort, spiritual healing, etc., all will follow.