I know about the nightmares and regrets and anger and worry; if any service member on this board is having a hard time please pm me,before you do something rash and permanent! I'm not a professional counselor,not a deacon ,not a big hugger but you have nothing to lose and I've reached a good place and could share some of your load;I'd even meet within reasonable driving distance and have coffee or let you punch me in the face;well maybe not in the face but I do have access to a heated indoor range..
We didn't serve alone , no one who served should suffer alone.... one man out on sat the wire alone is in a bad way,2 men you have an lp, 3 an improved op and 4 a fire team. My old team Cletus ,Junior and Willie Coon,why we could take on the world!