BS, You are a blessed man and totally unaware by whom you are blessed.
This none existent I AM you strenuously deny has graciously cloaked you in ignorance so your innocence is intact. Why He has chosen to have you remain unhearing and unseeing is anyone's guess, possibly because you wouldn't be able to make it on faith alone, I don't know.
What I do know is trying to convince you that there is indeed One God, Supreme, Self Evident, is a waste of time so I won't go there. I will however let you in on some knowledge that will manifest itself in an undeniable manner, the day Christ returns, the cloak of ignorance will be removed, and you will see.
Frankly, I don't care if you believe me or not, I am not sent to make you believe, but to sound the warning, to plant the seed, to tell you, you will believe, and you will bow your knee.
You will then begin a 1000 year period of learning discipline, and after that time is finished should you decide "It ain't for you" , this same I AM will let you choose to end your existence and you will be erased from all time, for and aft, as though you had never been. Additionally, those of use who remain will rejoice with you in your victory because you would be unhappy in heaven and we wouldn't want someone all unhappy and negative ruining it for the rest of us.
In closing, enjoy the trip, I wish you well.