It's Sunday 4 23 17 3;49 pm . I have not attended church for three weeks . Becky took everything she owned down to her birth certificate three weeks ago . She is gone .
I saw it coming , her mother is dying , she is in the last stage of Alzheimer's . I have tried to council , talk , encourage her but she blocked me out . I just came from seeing her mom at the rest home . Becky is in the wind .
I have been trying to keep busy today , trying not to think . All the treatment centers , church , personal , church programs for problem kids , well heck just lay 'stuff' I have started or been involved in seems to have failed me with her . I failed . Seems like a third of my threads are my failings , we all fail . As usual I just reread James , I relate to James . James was plain spoken , he told the undeniable truth in few words , you see him trying to be diplomatic but presenting fact . The book of James is short I encourage you to read it twice .
James 5;16
16 Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.
James died by being thrown off a two story building because he refused to deny GOD . When that failed to kill him he was again demanded to deny GOD ..he refused and was put to the sword . Yea , demands thought .
The last three weeks I have ben drinking a pint of liquor a night , haven't drank in bout 35 years . Rough necked on drilling rigs , did bout everything 'oilfield' , well acquainted with the effects of liquor . Kills the pain , dulls the senses but doesn't solve anything . Creates a brand new Hell in your life . Haven't been posting much , haven't been doing anything except trying to avoid pain . Got multiple problems right now . Swallowed my pride and put up this thread . Just reporting another failing and seeking prayer .
Pray for Becky , pray for protection and guidance . She has fell in with a bad element . Pray for me in the way you deem important . There are good people here , If I didn't care , respect or believe you were I dang sure would not have posted . Me and her got trouble .
Thank you .
Charlie